Teddy Bear 1

Tom saw the two boys sitting cuddled up next to each other on the couch. Ed looked like a huge teddy bear next to the slim Charlie. The younger boy rested his head on his boyfriend's shoulder and Ed had his arm around the other boy. They were watching reruns of Doctor Who, and of coursed they had asked Tom if he wanted to join them.
"Nah, I have song lyrics to finish" he excused himself.
But he didn't feel like sitting alone in his room, so he was now sitting by the kitchen table, where he could see his two friends on the couch. He regretted his choice, but as much as he wanted to leave, he wanted to stay.
Because all he wanted to do was to push Charlie away from Ed and take his place. Why didn't they see how jealous Tom was? Wasn't it obvious? He wanted Ed. He wanted Ed to hold him like he held Charlie right now and he wanted him to kiss him goodnight. He wanted Ed to be his teddy bear. Fucking Charlie didn't deserve him. Who had always been there for Ed when he was sad? Tom. Who made him tea when the world could go fuck itself? Tom. But Ed didn't see it. All he had eyes for was that pathetic little fucker. He was ugly too, the little boy thief. And he didn't treat Ed the way he deserved to be treated. He didn't know him like Tom did. No one could ever love Ed like Tom did. And no one would ever find out about it.
Because it didn't matter how much Tom wanted to kill the younger boy for doing this to his heart, he couldn't hurt Ed. And Ed was all that mattered.
He wanted to stay there with the couple, just so he could look at Ed. But he couldn't handle that Charlie was sitting by his side.
And now he was raising his head and gave Ed a kiss on the cheek.
Fucking hell. Tom hated him, hated him. Charlie ruined his life.
Tom couldn't take it anymore and stood up.
Ed looked over at him when he turned to leave the room and gave him a questioning look.
"Just going to the loo" Tom mumbled and walked out of the room with his head down. He locked himself up in the bathroom and hit his fists in the white tile.
"Fuck" he muttered and leaned his head against the wall as his tears started to fall.